A Population disease among Civilizations

While I was defending my quest for homosexual rights, I read a number of pro-gay books. I believed these books accounts were accurate and found no reason to question the validity of the gay argument. I attended P-flag meetings and went to the Gay Pride Parade every year. I believed we Gays were misunderstood and needed acceptance. If only people were educated, others would see the truth and join me in my justifications of my sex acts.

Homosexuality is like a plague that affects every large population. For this reason, one can find homosexual defenses and propaganda through-out history. These arguments, in my experience, do not merit honest and realistic accounting of the nature of homosexuality, in my experience.

Today being different has become a trend and being Gay is a popular way to dissociate from main stream society. Anyone who doesn't exactly feel comfortable being their own gender now thinks they must have homosexual tendencies. Homosexual clubs encourage people to question their sexuality and give justifications for those who feel uncomfortable. There is a reason why people are uncomfortable with Homosexuality and the stigma is not simply prejudice in every case. The practice of being Gay has very much become a culture, a click, a cult. Once you have adopted the principles the Gay culture clearly puts out, there may never be a return to mainstream behavior for the converted. Therefore, there is good reason to be leary. Many homosexuals in my experience are very far removed from what, to me, feels and looks natural. It is a shame to see my brothers and sisters distort their identies into bizarre and seemingly non-human expressions.

I have no idea why I was diverted from the club of Homosexuals and had my eyes opened to a greater reality of honesty. I don't feel shame any more, because I am not perverting my gender expression. This is not to say that I was aware that I was ashamed before, after all I was in a club that professes PRIDE!

There are those who would say that I'm not gay and that is true now, but it wasn't true then. I really did not like Men romantically before I realized that true love between two members of the same sex does not exist as it can between those of opposite genders. Only after realizing that an exchange of energy could only be experience with a man, did I let down my defenses and begin to accept heterosexual love. I always thought that would never happen before because I was heavily deluded.

I now understand why Tantric practices really only work in the higher sense (beyond stimulation) for Men and Women.

I highly encourage those who are part of this group of homosexuality, or know someone who is to take an honest assessment. Certainly reviewing what I have published here may very likely make life much more gratifying for some who are willing to submit their own way for a more genuine path.