The Church that Changed Me

Radiant Light of San Francisco with Reverend Matt Garrigan was a huge influence on me when I was 18 years old. I was barely an adult and I remember myself now, as I was then, being like a huge blank canvas that was unwittingly painted in the colors of this church. I'm not sure this happens to every budding homosexual; but this exposure to the Gay Community is the real root of what would be over a 10 year experience with homosexual inclinations. I am referring to this church here because I see Radiant Light as the supreme influence that altered me beyond recognition to even my family and spawned my total acceptance of the homosexual lifestyle. It's funny how deceptive it is to see homosexuals openly accepted in a group setting. The instinct to be like the crowd and condone what appears to be "the norm" is exceptionally influential. This is in fact what homosexuals appear to be striving for by fighting for more and more "rights". Remember, I was only 18 as my world was turned upside down by Matt Garrigan. He was a very magnetic speaker. Being gay himself, he drew a predominantly gay crowd. I find it most alarming now that this minister doesn't even claim to be the source of his own sermons. Matt Garrigan refers to his messages as being "channelled" that some other speaker is talking through him. Well, who is this other speaker? Does it alarm anybody that some unaccountable entity is influencing this whole group? Anyway, everyone there seemed to be totally enamored with him and I guess I was too. The more time I spent around the group the more I wanted to fit in. As I witnessed lesbian couples hugging and kissing in front of me, I began to accept that maybe there was love there. I would later learn that lust is different than love.